Deuteronomy 33:12
"Let the beloved of the LORD rest secure in him, for he shields him all day long, and the one the LORD loves rests between his shoulders."

I found this verse the other day quite by accident.  I found it and immediately thought of you.  Sister you are the beloved of the Lord.  You may not feel lit, may not believe it, but it is no less true. 

You are His beloved child.  The apple of His eye,  He is with you on the good days and certainly on the bad.  He who created you never leaves your side. 

Praying for you.